– A journey of Letting Go
New beginnings are often disguised as painful endings- Lao Tzu
No doubt divorce is certainly not the intended outcome of a marriage let alone one that lasted 15 years. 19 years old, standing at the alter looking lovingly into my 21-year-old fiance’s eyes, all I could see was forever. I just knew that we had a love that would stand the test of time. All those people telling us “You’re too young” and “you don’t know what you want”, were just a bunch of haters as far as I was concerned. They were just mad that they haven’t found their “soul mate” as early in life as we did.
It didn’t matter that some family members refused to attend our wedding, bridesmaids, and groomsmen back out at the last minute and my fiance helped me pick out my dress. I didn’t think that it was a bad sign to have the car break down on my way to pick up my dress in the middle of traffic for no apparent reason 5 minutes before the bridal shop closed ( we were able to talk them into opening back up and the car started with no problem after picking up the dress). I didn’t care that we missed rehearsal due to traffic or that he saw me the morning of the wedding. Didn’t even break a sweat when my dress was still being altered 30 minutes after my wedding was supposed to start causing me to be late to my own big day.
The best-man walked in right when the party started down the aisle, the wrong music was playing, the groom dropped the ring and the wedding coordinator got into it with my in-laws. None of that mattered to me because damn it we were going to last forever! It wasn’t until I laid in bed that night in my newly gifted negligee, 2 hours into waiting for my husband to come home and consummate our marriage, did I start to have doubt. I pushed that to the side as I drifted off to sleep listening to Your All I Need.
15 years and two kids later I am here taking you on my journey of divorce from my “forever love”. Something no one could have told me was in my future but, life has a funny way of working things out. Follow me as I take you through my story as I begin life again.